FATALISTIC FEELINGS

So there's a bit of FatMan..the name  of Jerry Missile is of course a take on a Hollywood actor which isn't too difficult to fathom if you take a famous cartoon and a type of missile. The whole book is a surreal story of sex, relationships, religion and the meaning if life, reflecting our world in rather weird and strange ways. It's humorous and  gross, as well as deeply meaningful and debauched, which makes it a unique mix.

Creativity is a wonderful thing, and like any art it requires constant practice to perfect. For my own part when I want to find inspiration I just ask the old creative subconscious to come up with the next word that leads into a sentence and then into a page, that takes the form of a story. It's exactly the same with this post, I don't actually know where this is going till I get to the end...just like life. The real difficulty ..and it is a difficult or easy as you make it, is giving into the flow of the world and not trying to force the issue. It's a knack, and for me as easy to loose as it is to use. 

Over the recent weeks I've found myself living mentally the 'real' world, and as a result the coincidences have stopped as well as seeing the opportunities. Only over the last few days have they started to appear again, funnily enough since the end of the Olympics. Now was that because my focus was on events taking place and I failed to see the signs, or was that because there were no signs...I think the former rather than the latter. Undoubtedly the more we become embroiled in the moments of distraction the more we loose sight of the creative substance which can help us to our goals. It's a game, nothing more, but one there are only so many days within to have an opportunity to master. In truth I'm going to have to go a fair old pace to master this in one lifetime and there certainly is less left time now than there  used to be. But whatever happens I cannot deny the feeling everything was always meant to happen a certain way anyway, a forgone conclusion in a pre written story which plays out like it's a random event that whilst seems to be within my power to grasp the ability to determine by relaxing and letting the opportunity flow my way, still gives the feeling of destiny. There is no winning or loosing in the success game of life, it's just the way you get to learn the most important lesson for you... And that's the trick ...knowing what it was and when you've finally learnt it.